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So today was spent doing alot of soul searching and just thoughts about my life up to this point and how I have been dealing with some of my problems. I have prayed much more than usual and my connection with God has become the forefront of my life. Many of my friends would say that I have changed alot and there are still alot of things that I am trying to fix about myself but I am actually becoming happy with the person I see in the mirror that I look in every morning. I know that it will be a while before I am fully comfortable with myself  but I know when that day comes it will be the greatest day of my life. In this post I would also like to say thank you to every person that has come into my life and challenged my way of thinking and made me become a more open minded person. I have realized that there is a reason why I am at the prestigious college called VCU  and by the time I graduate that will all be revealed to me. So I want to say everyone should sit back and do a little soul searching and analyzing of your life it will enlighten about things. So that’s my little piece of advice for today. God Bless and try that it will work I promise you that.

So today was a busy and hectic and all 2gether bad day. I had to go home yesterday to handle some family business and I had an eight o clock this morning. I did not go to sleep until around 3 because I had to study for a quiz in Chemistry today which I think I did not do so well on. I was up at 630 and back at school by 8. I had 5 classes today and im just really tired. I felt bad because my mothers birthday was yesterday and I was not able to get her anything the only thing I could tell her was happy birthday. This weekend though me and my dad are going to take her out to dinner and probably do something really nice for her but we havent decided yet. I will also be doing alot of homework and studying for an important test in Focus Inquiry which is the only one of the semester so I cant bomb it. Besides that I am glad that my mother made it another year because everyday with her has been a blessing and I pray that God will bless me with many more years with mom. So life is good because I am still alive and my mom is still alive and gow continues 2 bless me.  God Bless and have a good day!

So im pretty happy with the way the weekend is shaping up. First I was able to get alot of school work done and study alot. Also the lottery system for housing opened up this weekend  and my number was 0213 and that was a great number and a couple of my friends were upset because there numbers were so far up. And I got a room which i believe is one of the best in Ackell a 2 person suite which come with a parking space. I’m so happy because alot of people would have loved to get a room like that. By the evening last night all the good rooms were gone. I am also gearing up for my mothers birthday this week on Tuesday I wanna do something nice for her but I haven’t figured out what yet. I wanna do something that shows I appreciate her in my life and I’m so glad that GOD blessed her with another year.Also this weekend I was able to chill with some friends and it was great we all became alot closer and it was just great that we had that quality time together. Besides that my weekend was just another weekend and I really enjoyed it, hopefully your weekend went as good as mine . God Bless and be EASY.

So today is just going, there is really no feelings that I really have about today . Its just another Thursday the only thing different is that I have a test in US Government and I have been studying but I am not sure how im going to do. I going to continue to pray and hope that I have done enough to do well on this. So besides that the weather is hell right now one day its hot and in the 60s then the next day is 20 degrees and its snowing and raining. I think God is just having a good time changing up the weather on us…..lol. My puppy candy is getting “FIXED” today and she going to be sick for a while which sucks because I would have loved to see her have puppies but I guess you cant cry over spilled milk. I am so tired and im so busy I need a break and thank god that we have spring break coming up it will be a great time for me to see my grandmother I haven’t seen her in a year and a half and she told me that I had to come see her cause she really missed me so thats what I am going to do. I dont know when my last day will be on this earth and I dont know when her last day will be so I am going to see her for a couple days as soon as we get out. So I just wanted to write a little something but I have to continue studying for this test so God Bless and take it EAZY!

When u feeling like everything in life is piling up on you what do you do. When you cry every night and you feel like God is listening but because you haven’t been in his favor he doesn’t feel like your worthy of his help, what do you do? When you feel like you letting everyone who is depending on you and wants to see you succeed down, what do you do? I feel like this all the time lately and I have lost all motivation in life, I am continuesly depressed. I want school to be over with and at one point I was thinking about taking a break from school because im doing so bad and cant concentrate on anything. My studies and suffering and my work is below average. But im not a quitter and I never have been but I need to make some decisions, decisions that are right for me and that will put my life back in order. I should always listen to my mother and I did not listen to her when she told me something this semester and I did not pay attention and in the end she may be right. I really wanna ask God to help me because I know I cant continue to make it one more day if I dont get a answer from him( and I not trying to rush it but it would be great if it came soon). I feel so blessed to wake up everyday but as each day goes on it seems like the devil is pressing down harder because he wants to see me fail. I think I need a break away from VCU where I dont do anything but relax and get my mind together and not have any responsibility but being with my family and friends and  enjoying the simple pleasures of life. So as I am writing this  I am beginning to cry  because im just really stressed and scared about what life has in store for me. tomorrow I am going to make some changes and hopefully fix some problems and hopefully everyone in my life will understand and not change there views of me.This is just a release of my feelings. Just keep your head up readers and I will keep you posted on my hectic life! Be Blessed and I will talk to you soon.

So this weekend has been very hectic. I came home this weekend because my mother went out of town to North Carolina to see my grandmother and great grandmother who i havent seen in God knows how long and  she asked me to watch our puppy so I said yes. I love coming home but this weekend was not the same , they say home is where the heart is and since my mom who is my heart was not here being home was not what I wanted it to be. It seemed to jsut be a set of walls. But it was still nice to be away from the VCU campus. I dont know im just really starting to hate the sight if that campus. Also this weekend my best friend Sean asked me to come with him to have something done on his car and on the way there his car broke down and we had to wait for the tow truck to come and his mom to come it was just a very hectic saturday. Life lately has been very busy and I am still trying to get things in my life in order. I will continue to pray for you and I hope that you wil return the favor and pray for me… God Bless !

Today was a very eventful day. I enjoyed my stay at my friends house we went up to Northern Virginia and ventured into Washington D.C. I loved it, it was such a release from school although I had much work to do just to be off of campus was healthy for my soul. I learned some good news today and some bad news but all and all I decided I would not let that effect the way I do things I will continue to push and make it through and ” God Said that he would never put so much on me that he would never put to much on me that I would not be able to bear”. My mother called me today and it was a good conversation we just talked about life and school and just things that we are both dealing with right now and we prayed together and that was a good feeling because a family that prays together stays together. I decided that I will try my hardest to minimize the stress in my life and just live life day by day and hopefully God will work it all out. On this I would also like to send out a special prayer to a friend of mine and his family. I know that everything will work out and things will get better. So just take life a day at a time and keep positive thoughts in your mind. < Be Blessed, LOVE, LIVE LIFE> 

So today has started off really good! My class was cancelled and I getting some work done and that’s always a great thing. Also I woke up this morning and washed clothes which is something that I been having to do for a long time. LOL and I didn’t realize how relaxing washing your clothes can be, you can just relax contemplate what you will do during the day and other little things that are just everyday things. Today I am also getting the HELL off of VCU campus its long overdue I will be adventuring to my friend Corey’s House and Hopefully this will be a mini vacation to revitalize my spirits and get me pumped up for the home stretch . So besides that life is pretty much normal and I am starting to truly enjoy second semester. I was able to talk to my mother yesterday and shes not feeling to well her and my father have the flu and although that is a bad thing it is finally making her take some time off of work which I have been praying that this would happen. So it is a mixed blessing. My puppy candy is getting big she is now 13 pounds oh and she is a tan cocker spaniel she so funny and she can brighten up any day of you don’t have a dog you need to get one ASAP. For once I am glad to be talking about some light hearted things on this blog it was due time. I’m going to end this one on a good note. Be blessed < Love, Live, Life>

 Quote: “Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome” Booker T. Washington

 I was just on-line today and I came to this quote and it really made me think about past struggles and the people in my life that I value. Many of them have not reached the highest positions or done the biggest things in there life but when I think back to the things that they went through just to be at the where they are now it amazes me. This also makes me think about my life and the  struggles I have been through and go through daily and how I have handled them and how I let it effect me . I know now after reading and really thinking about this quote I have decided that I will no longer think about success as a position I hold but  just to be happy with where I am at and what I have accomplished so far and what I had to go through to get here. I hope who ever reads this post will really analyze that quote and appreciate where they are at in life . Just remember be the best you can be and that’s good enough. If you can today take some time and call your parents and thank them for being the people that they are and doing what they had to do to raise you as the great human being that you are they will really appreciate it!!! Sorry if you think my posts should be longer because I just speak from the heart I wouldn’t want to taint that with unneccesary additions. LOL < God Bless & Keep Pushing through Life>

So today in Focus Inquiry was a great day it was pretty much geared toward me today. We had peer review but instead of it being in groups it was the whole class that took a look at my paper and told me what they thought. So personally I did not believe that my paper was to good and there was alot of improvements and additions I could have made to it. The class really agreed that my paper was really good but it just needs more detail which is what I thought of from the beginning. The positive reinforcement that I  got today was everything I needed to really focus on my paper and make it a very memorable writing. Oh and by the way if you didn’t know the paper is about my mother and my fear of separation from her and just growing up and fear of failure. Today has actually been pretty good except for the fact that I found out that I have a math exam at 2 which I am studying my butt off for.  Like I said before I just continue to look forward to spring break in March ” O the Agony!!!!” lol it seems so far away. Only 33 more Days <Love, Live, Life and Be Blessed!>